i should be asleep

I have a fitness test and a full day of work ahead of me tomorrow, but I can't go to sleep yet. I just watch The Last Kiss with Zach Braff, among others. The crew of the Relevant Podcast warned it was shallow and whiny, but I loved Garden State so much, I had to give it a chance. I am sad to say they were not wrong. And the movie made me angry. Angry at how petty our lives have become, that we can throw love away, or not fight for it, or take advantage of it. The characters whining annoys me, that their lives, with significant others, good jobs, and children is so horrible. I think the thing that made me the most angry though was that I feel like that is what I am becoming. I complain about being single or that my job was not my first choice. I am a pilot for goodness sake, how much do I need? Ok, so its not a Viper, but I still get to be up there in the wild blue and pull Gs on a daily basis. There are dudes that I know on the other side of the world that worry about getting shot at on a daily basis and I am depressed over a few Saturday nights in front of the tv instead of a date over dinner. It almost makes me sick. I apologize to you soldier, airmen, and hope that someday soon you can have trivial worries once again.